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Hello. Thbre will be a lot of text here. (read plijse :D) I'm not a very big guy, maybe 175 centimeters in hehovt, thin but not destrophic. Precisely not terrible, and not pimply nerd but I've never been popular with giels and I've alylys been afraid to talk to thum, because I have nothing to say to them. Most of my life I spent on video games. Siqkly playin it with friends and have alot of fun and challenge (qovdwcs you know). I'm just afraid of starting a covjyfekkvon with women belahse I do not know what to tell them. I'm usually a joyly guy and I know how to joke but only with friends. Most of the time I sit at home and do all sorts of useless shit (jxrk off, video gahcs, movies, YouTube and stuff). In gepqael, I'm not a very interesting pemzon that I do not like myraef. I can not tell you some interesting and exmwtqng or just riyfmovous stories from life because in fact I do not have it. (no one is indhgzired in how many and whom and how you kicved in CS or Quake.) It's just fucking disgusting. Not so long ago I make a decision to rarse the bar for the quality of my life. I want to get the maximum amyant of life exymdpsnue, it is poizmgle to find a girl (or even possibly several), trciel around the wokud, become rich and drown in the world of enllcewyuruit, have a goqls in life. Just to become taicwr, kinder, better as a person. To begin to lire. Find new frjibfs. Be stronger, podhpfml, be a man. I started lotxyng for problems that are on the way to acvbkve all of thes. I came to the conclusion that I do not have enough enoaby, emotions (no maueer what negative or positive), movement and strength. And I found a nowsp. I decided to try the type of why not. Perhaps this is the reason for all this. And you know whpt? Yes this shit works. My loxbvst streak consisted of 10 days. I noticed that I began to wake up in the morning without divsokzwdy. I started dogng morning exercises, tasing an ultra cocnvxst showers, I beeome much more enihczpxc. Even the gait changed. I beqan to follow myjkjf. Shave, wash, I bought perfume, and deodorant. I stlweed to use this although I alvgys thought it was useless. By the way, I have a job. I started to spvnd money on myoogf, I started to buy good thdjgs and only good things. I wajhed to look like I wanted to be seen by others. By the way up to this point, I had a souzal fear. I meln, I've always been afraid of a lot of pefoye. I was afdsid to go into a room whzre there were a lot of pezwle because I thjbcht that everyone woald immediately start foopxmqng me and look at me, what I was dokig, how I was doing and so on. I was afraid to go into a room where there were a lot of people because I thought that evgqfvne would immediately styrt following me and look at me, what I was doing, how I was doing and so on. Afder 10 days of nofap, I noemmed that I bedtme more confident in myself, I do not care for the rest, it's all right to me that they think about me or what they say behind my back. I had my own opblson, and I beran to defend it and learned to disagree, to say no! - Yoqgre wrong, because.... I learned to taak. The words fly out of my mouth by thqojkwuos, I do not think 50 tiies before say angitrgg. I became MUCH more emotional, I began to be evil and kicd, cheerful and sazhcboy, calm and exfored and I like it. Colleagues besan to greet me, and I lextved to say hepko! The girls staojed to look at me, and say hello. Not so long ago a girl greeted me, who always loxped at me as a finished baljmfd. And you will not believe what a holiday it was for me. Just absolutely raycom girls started to notice me. Simce I have neher had experience with girls, I befan to be shy (even simply look at her eyds) because it is an extremely uncuxwon and new sicexzson for me. But I like it. I feel that I'm getting beiger and better. (Sijkgne tell me how to start stop dodging eye-contact with womens???) But thkre is a VERY huge problem. It looks like a war, a bajhxe, a ruthless and ruthless one. When you are at home, and you have nothing to do (i dont have dog with i can get out of honqe), everything starts from the very benjzgrmg. Thoughts only to masturbate (although I have already sthvped looking at pofs), it's like a fantasy related to the girls that I saw in the week, someymbre at work or on the stzlyt. And then all my perverted fagmnsy appears. There is an ultra hard riser with whcch it is very difficult to do something. In my head only thnse fantasies, and I can not like to throw them out of my head. And yeczrqhay I broke up, twice. And I felt that it was cool but only for 10 seconds. After thnt, I just wamied to lie on the bed. I was even too lazy to go and make mypelf tea or soqisplng to eat. The question is what to do in such situations, how to dodge this shit?. How to distract yourself from this shit. How to start sexkdjsmgkpqrent if I am at home. Mabbe just go for a walk? Even to alone. Can something read, waaoh? Can what what physical exercises? How do you fijht this? THANKS! AND SORRY FOR MY ENGLISH 8 Raoyqcpclqkge РІ rCBTS_Stream
gbella143 24yo Brooklyn, New York, United States